A Dream That May Fly Away

Today I really have a mix feeling that I can not exactly know what I really feel.
It's because of one of my dream.
Yes, every person in this world must be having many dreams.
What is your feeling when your dream finally came true ?
I think everyone will feel very happy if that happened.
In fact I'm always thinking like that too.

This day I have a chance to achieve one of my dream.
Actually this dream is not a kind of absolute dream.
What I mean of absolute dream here is a dream that can not change at all in my life.
For example my dream to become a very successful person and have a happy family, it's a dream that I think wont change at all.
My dream that I achieved today is a dream that actually can change.
Yes, there's a possibility that in the future I wont be dreaming about this dream again, even though I don't know exactly what will my feeling be like in that time.
So it's only a little dream ?
Actually I don't think so, despite of this is not an absolute dream, this dream is a dream that I always want since at about 2 years ago.
Although there's a long time since I started dreaming about it, I actually never have a chance to make this dream come true.
Honestly this dream is something that maybe doesn't need such a wonderful effort.
I see so many persons can have a chance to feel this dream, but due of my bad situation and condition, I could not have a chance to fulfill this dream even only once.
At that time I felt sad and envied so many people that can have that chance.
I often think about this dream day by day and before I sleep at that period.
Yes I guess this dream is really such a happiness to me, and I can put a smile on my face if I can get this dream.

Thankfully this day I had a chance that I'm always waiting for.
I was going to a time and a place to make one of my dream come true.
Even a minute before the time I still asked "is this really true ?".
Yes somehow I still could not believe that I can feel this dream after such a long time.
I finally can feel this feeling :)
Actually it's not like that 100% of my dream came true.
In fact this day, it was only a little part of my dream fulfilled.
Am I sad about it ?
Actually I don't feel sad at all.
Even only a little part of my dream that came true, but I think today is one of my happiest moment for a period.
Yes, they said the longer you wait, the happier you will feel when the time is come.
I think it's happened on my case.
Because I have been dreaming about this thing for such a long time, I become feel very happy when the time is finally come.
I really thankful and happy because a part of one of my dream is finally came true.
At last I can have a chance to feel this moments.
It's really a precious moments that I rarely get.

However I have a mix feeling about this.
It's true that I'm very happy because of this day.
But on any chance after fulfilling my dream, I realize that maybe that was the last time I can feel this dream.
Yes, I think maybe I will not have a chance like this again in the future.
Somehow this day is like a farewell to one of my dream.
Am I sad about it ?
Actually I don't know exactly how do I feel about this.
Some way I think that I feel relieve because finally I can feel this moment and maybe it's the time to say goodbye to this dream.
Like I said before, this is not an absolute dream.
At some way, I think that it's the best to let this dream for the sake of everything.
Yes I think this dream is not suitable to my condition and situation.
On one side I think like "Are you giving up on your dream ? ", but on the other side I think "It's not like I'm giving up, but it's for the sake of everybody, especially for myself. It's not an absolute dream, it's just a dream that coincidentally arrived in yourself".
Yes I think it's a time to let this dream because at least I can fulfill a part of this dream even only a little.
At the moment, I'm not crying or feel sad about it.
I don't know why, but I just smile and feel like that it's the time to let it go.
I'm really confuse, because I feel that it's not a dream that I can't easily forget and in some ways, I think I'm still dreaming about it.

Well after reading that story, I'm sure that many of you will feel confuse and think it's an ambiguous story.
Yes, it's normal.
For some reasons I can not describe what is this kind of dream very clearly.
I just more concern about my feeling this day.
Like I said that I think I'm happy to let this dream now, but in my heart I know that I will very happy if I can have a chance like this day again in the future.
It's really a mix feeling and actually I'm still not sure what I have to do and feel about this dream.
I hope that  as a time goes by I will know the best answer about this.
Now I have to realize that I have to concern about the reality.
Yes I just hope that I can give my best in order to not letting my other dream, especially my absolute dream.

Regards