The Value Of Birthday

Today is my birthday and I have mix feelings about it.

Most of all people I know always think birthday is a happy moment.
They're always waiting for it, and when the day arrived, they were so happy.
They're celebrating it, they thought birthday is really a happy day.
But I have my opinion, honestly I will feel sad on my birthday, why ?
Because it means that I'm getting old, it indicates that my time to live in this world is getting less, and also the older we are, the more problems that will come to us, isn't it ?
That's the reason why I don't really like birthday.

However, on the other side, there is a good thing that I get from my birthday.
I think  my birthday this year is quite memorable.
It's not like other people think, I don't have a party on it.
This year I celebrate my birthday alone, I don't have birthday cake and I don't go to beautiful place, but it's not problem for me, I'm used to the situation when I have to be alone.
But what makes me grateful is something that I got from my birthday.
These are "Little Chat".
Yes lot of you think it's normal on birthday, and it's not something special.
But as a person who has lot of lonely times, I really appreciate it.

As we grow older, our birthday is not important to most people.
They started to forget and don't care about it.
Even many people that always wished us very early in the past turn into the people who never wishing us.
I accept it, and I think it's normal thing in life, because our relationship have changed.
This year I receive many wishes from many people, it's not so much, but I really happy.
I really appreciate the people who wished me, especially the people who message me personally only to wished me.
I got birthday message and after that we had little chat.
Maybe it's not a long chat, only a little.
Also maybe It's sounded very normal because I can get a chat even it's not my birthday.
But for me a little talk on my birthday is always more special, It feels different.
It's really more precious than other time.
And I realize this is the birthday gift that I most want, the birthday gift that I always want every year.
The last time I received a gift like this is at about 4 years ago, it's been long time huh ?
Because I don't know whether it's a coincidence or not, on my precious years, I was always at the busy period when my birth day arrived and so was my friends.
So this year I'm thankful eventhough my birthday is not as luxurious as other people's.
Maybe this gift is not something that I can hold or I can keep, but it's still something that I can remember.
I appreciate it, even maybe in the future I will ever forget it.
But it's okay, I appreciate all of those people who have the intention to say happy birthday to me.

As usual, birthday is identics with our wish.
If only I can make my wish this year.
This is the wish that I really want to make.
"I hope on the next year of my birthday, I have became a far better person than now"

Regards