A Worry Of Making The Wrong Choice

In this life, We often have to make a choice at some aspects.
Our choice sometimes can make a great effect and great change of our life, especially if it's a very important choice.
If we make a choice that finally become the best choice for us, We become very glad and also grateful that we make a right choice.
But, how about if we make a wrong choice,  a choice that make a big effect in your life ?
Is it something that very bad ?

I'm also a person that feel this thing.
Eventhough I still don't know if my choice is really a wrong choice.
What is that choice ?
If you ever read my old post about "Lesson in College", you must know what is the choice.
Yes, my choice of my subject.
This adventure of my choice was already very difficult from the start.
I'm never very competitive in my own subject.
At the half of my college period, I think I still could handle my lesson.
However since in 5 term, my endurance became coming down.
Sometimes I felt a difficulty in my lesson.
I had to take a long time to study the lesson, but the result was not very good although I thought I have given my best.
I suffered a lot during that period, I tried everything but was not great enough.
and also it's a shame that I gave the maximum but still didn't achieve a very good result.

I have graduated my college and currently working now.
But I think I still have the same problem.
As other people said, my subject will always become an up to date aspect.
We who want to master this subject, have to keep learning, I ever think that will be no ending for me to learn this aspect.
But as time goes by, (I don't know exactly) I feel that my brain is getting slow as my age become older.
I feel that I become a very stupid person, I couldn't understand the subject clearly and always have a trouble in here.
It's a great pity for me because in my subject , there are very great knowledge, and also a great chance to achieve a success result.
I start to have a bad feeling about this.
Besides of the desperation, I'm also worried that I have made a wrong choice.
A choice that really give a big effect of my life.
Sometimes I asked this to myself  "Is my brain is the only key to establish my life ? "
Is this all my best ?
Have I done everything I could ?
I feel more pressure when I saw my friends can use their smart brain to make money, sometimes I want to have a smart brain like them.
Will I fail to become a successfull person because I don't have a smart brain and great hard skill?

I become very confuse of my life, whether I have to continue in this way or start to take a different way.
I think if I still continue my job in this way, I'm not sure that I can be a successfull person that will get a lot of money, I think that my preferences is in another way.
However I'm not sure whether I can take a risk to leave my current way to that other way, will I have a chance in that other way ? since my education background is not fulfill the requirement.
I think I still have a big of time to think about it, because I'm very afraid to make a wrong choice.

Well it's right that difficult moments are very important for become a better person also more strong.
I hope that I can get that effect with this my own way.
In this life, really there are really a fatal and important choice.
Humans really have to think about their choice, because sometimes that's no chance to repeat the journey.

Regards