It's Christmas day !
What do you want ?
What do you expect from this christmas ?
Do you believe in Santa Claus ?
If you say yes, what do you want from santa as a christmas gift ?
Yes, for most of all the children, Christmas is very identic with Santa Claus.
Because it's happen only once in a year, it become more special.
Lot of children believe that Christmas day is their chance to ask for a gift from Santa Claus, it's only once in a year, they really excited when the day has came.
They expect the gift will be under their bed at the morning of the christmas day.
Is it fun ?
Lol maybe.
When I was a kid, I was kind a that children too.
I always believed in Santa Claus & I always expected to get a christmas gift on the christmas day.
I used to pray to get any toys as christmas gift at that time.
But sadly, I never got any of christmas gift in my life.
What do I miss at that time ?
Myself.
Eventhough I didn't get a christmas gift on that christmas day, as a kid I accept it, and I always pray to get a chance on the next year on christmas day.
It happened for many years.
Sometimes, when I throwback to that time, I wonder how I can always believe in Santa Claus eventhough I always failed to get a present from him ?
I'm really confused how can I be a little kid who never stop believing in such a thing like that ?
It's really different from me now, Lol.
Well, I think that christmas is very special because I'm a christian.
But do you know ? Sometimes I still hope to get a christmas gift from santa.
However it's not like a gift that I want when I was a kid.
I don't expect to get a gift like toys, robot model or etc.
Yeah my gift is really more complicated now.
Just say I want somethings that I can hold, and even can't be bought by money.
Can I ask for a clever brain to make my work easier santa ?
Can I ask more time to meet with my family ?
Can I ask a chance to meet and play with my precious people ?
Can I ask to have a beautiful moment & see a smile of the girl that I love ?
Can I ask a way to make me become greater and successfull person ?
Can I ask an answer where my passion is in ?
There's so many that I want I just realized.
I want this, I want that, so manyyyyy things that I want.
It's really complicated xd.
Well I know that all my wishes are actually that somethings that I have to fight for myself.
I admit it that it's really difficult for me to get all my wishes there, so I think it's not a very wrong thing to have a hope like that ?
Remember when I was kid, I think that (maybe) I need to be myself at that time.
My wish to get a christmas gift is fail this year, but maybe I can still hope to get that christmas gift on the christmas of the next year.
Will it be next year santa ? Yes I hope.
Regards
A Worry Of Making The Wrong Choice
In this life, We often have to make a choice at some aspects.
Our choice sometimes can make a great effect and great change of our life, especially if it's a very important choice.
If we make a choice that finally become the best choice for us, We become very glad and also grateful that we make a right choice.
But, how about if we make a wrong choice, a choice that make a big effect in your life ?
Is it something that very bad ?
I'm also a person that feel this thing.
Eventhough I still don't know if my choice is really a wrong choice.
What is that choice ?
If you ever read my old post about "Lesson in College", you must know what is the choice.
Yes, my choice of my subject.
This adventure of my choice was already very difficult from the start.
I'm never very competitive in my own subject.
At the half of my college period, I think I still could handle my lesson.
However since in 5 term, my endurance became coming down.
Sometimes I felt a difficulty in my lesson.
I had to take a long time to study the lesson, but the result was not very good although I thought I have given my best.
I suffered a lot during that period, I tried everything but was not great enough.
and also it's a shame that I gave the maximum but still didn't achieve a very good result.
I have graduated my college and currently working now.
But I think I still have the same problem.
As other people said, my subject will always become an up to date aspect.
We who want to master this subject, have to keep learning, I ever think that will be no ending for me to learn this aspect.
But as time goes by, (I don't know exactly) I feel that my brain is getting slow as my age become older.
I feel that I become a very stupid person, I couldn't understand the subject clearly and always have a trouble in here.
It's a great pity for me because in my subject , there are very great knowledge, and also a great chance to achieve a success result.
I start to have a bad feeling about this.
Besides of the desperation, I'm also worried that I have made a wrong choice.
A choice that really give a big effect of my life.
Sometimes I asked this to myself "Is my brain is the only key to establish my life ? "
Is this all my best ?
Have I done everything I could ?
I feel more pressure when I saw my friends can use their smart brain to make money, sometimes I want to have a smart brain like them.
Will I fail to become a successfull person because I don't have a smart brain and great hard skill?
I become very confuse of my life, whether I have to continue in this way or start to take a different way.
I think if I still continue my job in this way, I'm not sure that I can be a successfull person that will get a lot of money, I think that my preferences is in another way.
However I'm not sure whether I can take a risk to leave my current way to that other way, will I have a chance in that other way ? since my education background is not fulfill the requirement.
I think I still have a big of time to think about it, because I'm very afraid to make a wrong choice.
Well it's right that difficult moments are very important for become a better person also more strong.
I hope that I can get that effect with this my own way.
In this life, really there are really a fatal and important choice.
Humans really have to think about their choice, because sometimes that's no chance to repeat the journey.
Regards
Our choice sometimes can make a great effect and great change of our life, especially if it's a very important choice.
If we make a choice that finally become the best choice for us, We become very glad and also grateful that we make a right choice.
But, how about if we make a wrong choice, a choice that make a big effect in your life ?
Is it something that very bad ?
I'm also a person that feel this thing.
Eventhough I still don't know if my choice is really a wrong choice.
What is that choice ?
If you ever read my old post about "Lesson in College", you must know what is the choice.
Yes, my choice of my subject.
This adventure of my choice was already very difficult from the start.
I'm never very competitive in my own subject.
At the half of my college period, I think I still could handle my lesson.
However since in 5 term, my endurance became coming down.
Sometimes I felt a difficulty in my lesson.
I had to take a long time to study the lesson, but the result was not very good although I thought I have given my best.
I suffered a lot during that period, I tried everything but was not great enough.
and also it's a shame that I gave the maximum but still didn't achieve a very good result.
I have graduated my college and currently working now.
But I think I still have the same problem.
As other people said, my subject will always become an up to date aspect.
We who want to master this subject, have to keep learning, I ever think that will be no ending for me to learn this aspect.
But as time goes by, (I don't know exactly) I feel that my brain is getting slow as my age become older.
I feel that I become a very stupid person, I couldn't understand the subject clearly and always have a trouble in here.
It's a great pity for me because in my subject , there are very great knowledge, and also a great chance to achieve a success result.
I start to have a bad feeling about this.
Besides of the desperation, I'm also worried that I have made a wrong choice.
A choice that really give a big effect of my life.
Sometimes I asked this to myself "Is my brain is the only key to establish my life ? "
Is this all my best ?
Have I done everything I could ?
I feel more pressure when I saw my friends can use their smart brain to make money, sometimes I want to have a smart brain like them.
Will I fail to become a successfull person because I don't have a smart brain and great hard skill?
I become very confuse of my life, whether I have to continue in this way or start to take a different way.
I think if I still continue my job in this way, I'm not sure that I can be a successfull person that will get a lot of money, I think that my preferences is in another way.
However I'm not sure whether I can take a risk to leave my current way to that other way, will I have a chance in that other way ? since my education background is not fulfill the requirement.
I think I still have a big of time to think about it, because I'm very afraid to make a wrong choice.
Well it's right that difficult moments are very important for become a better person also more strong.
I hope that I can get that effect with this my own way.
In this life, really there are really a fatal and important choice.
Humans really have to think about their choice, because sometimes that's no chance to repeat the journey.
Regards
Graduation Day
My Graduation day is really really full of dramas.
Until the last time I still haven't know whether I could attend that day or not.
At the beginning, I actually didn't have so much intention to attending this day.
When there was a graduation registration, I was not sure if I want to attend this day.
Unlike most of other students, My parents don't think too much about college time, my family just concern that I will success in the future, no matter what is the way (As long it's the good way).
My parents never asked me my grade, my score, and other academic aspects at my college time.
Also, some of my close friends were at far place from my graduation day place, I thought that my graduation day would be less meaningful, and would be not precious at all, so at the beginning I didn't want to attend this day.
After I told all that reasons, my parents and my twin said that I was such a pity if I didn't attend that day, but my parents let me to made my own decision.
I was thinking at that moment, and finally I decided to attend.
Why ?
I wanted to try it, to attended my graduation day.
My hope was with I came back to that town and attending my graduation day, I could meet my family and some of my friends(maybe).
I also thought that there was a possibility that my graduation day could be meaningful eventhough I still thought there was only a small possibility.
But finally I decided to attend.
However to attend this day, there were so much difficulty, Yes ! I was very confused whether those were coincidences or not.
My flight to Jakarta was canceled due to Mount Agung Mountain problem.
So in order to came back to Jakarta I need to went to Surabaya by travel and take a flight to Jakarta from there.
But the story was just begun.
I searched a travel to Surabaya, but it was so hard since most of travels were already full.
After I searched for a moment, I got a seat to Surabaya, and we got a deal.
However until the evening that travel didn't contact us, I thought our trip to Surabaya would be cancelled, but finally that travel came, I was a little glad.
On that car travel, I and my friends search a flight ticket from Surabaya to Jakarta.
And ?
The ticket that we found in the morning was sold out , and the rest were an quite expensive ticket.
We had a discussion whether we want to buy that expensive ticket or not, and after 10 minutes we were agree to bought it, however that ticket was sold out !
We're very confused about this, ckckck
After that we had a idea to searched a town that had a flight to Jakarta, and we found it , Jogjakarta.
So we purchased that tickets, first ticket from Surabaya to Jogjakarta, next Jogjakarta to Jakarta.
We had nearly almost 16 hours of trip to Surabaya by travel, and I was so so tired because of that, I couldn't sleep yes :'(.
After arrived In Surabaya, we have to waited for almost 7 hours for boarding time.
After waiting for 7 hours, there was an accountment that our flight was delayed for 2 hours ,
Yeahh, It was really sad huh.
And after that we flighted, but that flight was the most scary flight that I ever had.
Only the first 20 minutes, our plan just liked to fall, because It was not a quite good plane (maybe).
I was scared at that time.
But finally we arrived to Jogja safely.
Thanks god, one step closer !
Our flight from Jogja to Jakarta was delayed to, but It's was not a long time.
We have a safe flight to Jakarta,
We arrived at almost 11 pm.
It's really stupid if I thought, from the ordinary 2 hours of flight, I had to took almost two days of trip, to come back to Jakarta.
It's not stop, next my parents.
My parents wanted to go to Jakarta by a ship.
That trip was cancelled due to weather problem, and my parents were asked to come back to tommorow.
On the next day, my parent went to hairbour in the early of morning , and the trip was still cancelled !
My parents order flight tickes quickly, since the event only just 2 days again.
And that flight was delayed for almost 6 hours ! hell crazy.
I picked up my parents at 11 pm and come back to hotel.
Next ?
My graduation invitation card was lost ! It must be joking
I was really frustation at that time.
Why such that difficulty always showing up ?
Is it a fate that I didn't attend my graduation day ?
I was searching for it until 2.am
And miracles happen, that manager hotel help us to find that invitation card, He was really a good person , thanks to him !
Okay I was ready to attend my graduation day.
My graduation day was came.
I followed all the run down in Graduation day.
but what I make a little bit scared was I got a message that some of my close friends could not come to my graduation day, I was a little bit sad.
After the run down was finished, I was worried that they would not be any friends to search for me and took a photo with me, because there were so many many graduated students that met with their people and took a photo.
But, thanks God !
I got a chance to took a photo with some of my friends.
My friends that congratulated me, took a photo with me.
I was very happy, because it's the thing that I very love :
"Take a photo with my precious people"
Whether with my families or with my friends.
I was really really thankful, at the end my prediction at the beginning didn't happen.
My graduation day became a quite good memories.
I got so many photos from that day, I really really really really liked it !
I want to say big thanks to god, to my family, and to my friends that make my graduation day become an once a time precious memory that I will remember.
Regards
Until the last time I still haven't know whether I could attend that day or not.
At the beginning, I actually didn't have so much intention to attending this day.
When there was a graduation registration, I was not sure if I want to attend this day.
Unlike most of other students, My parents don't think too much about college time, my family just concern that I will success in the future, no matter what is the way (As long it's the good way).
My parents never asked me my grade, my score, and other academic aspects at my college time.
Also, some of my close friends were at far place from my graduation day place, I thought that my graduation day would be less meaningful, and would be not precious at all, so at the beginning I didn't want to attend this day.
After I told all that reasons, my parents and my twin said that I was such a pity if I didn't attend that day, but my parents let me to made my own decision.
I was thinking at that moment, and finally I decided to attend.
Why ?
I wanted to try it, to attended my graduation day.
My hope was with I came back to that town and attending my graduation day, I could meet my family and some of my friends(maybe).
I also thought that there was a possibility that my graduation day could be meaningful eventhough I still thought there was only a small possibility.
But finally I decided to attend.
However to attend this day, there were so much difficulty, Yes ! I was very confused whether those were coincidences or not.
My flight to Jakarta was canceled due to Mount Agung Mountain problem.
So in order to came back to Jakarta I need to went to Surabaya by travel and take a flight to Jakarta from there.
But the story was just begun.
I searched a travel to Surabaya, but it was so hard since most of travels were already full.
After I searched for a moment, I got a seat to Surabaya, and we got a deal.
However until the evening that travel didn't contact us, I thought our trip to Surabaya would be cancelled, but finally that travel came, I was a little glad.
On that car travel, I and my friends search a flight ticket from Surabaya to Jakarta.
And ?
The ticket that we found in the morning was sold out , and the rest were an quite expensive ticket.
We had a discussion whether we want to buy that expensive ticket or not, and after 10 minutes we were agree to bought it, however that ticket was sold out !
We're very confused about this, ckckck
After that we had a idea to searched a town that had a flight to Jakarta, and we found it , Jogjakarta.
So we purchased that tickets, first ticket from Surabaya to Jogjakarta, next Jogjakarta to Jakarta.
We had nearly almost 16 hours of trip to Surabaya by travel, and I was so so tired because of that, I couldn't sleep yes :'(.
After arrived In Surabaya, we have to waited for almost 7 hours for boarding time.
After waiting for 7 hours, there was an accountment that our flight was delayed for 2 hours ,
Yeahh, It was really sad huh.
And after that we flighted, but that flight was the most scary flight that I ever had.
Only the first 20 minutes, our plan just liked to fall, because It was not a quite good plane (maybe).
I was scared at that time.
But finally we arrived to Jogja safely.
Thanks god, one step closer !
Our flight from Jogja to Jakarta was delayed to, but It's was not a long time.
We have a safe flight to Jakarta,
We arrived at almost 11 pm.
It's really stupid if I thought, from the ordinary 2 hours of flight, I had to took almost two days of trip, to come back to Jakarta.
It's not stop, next my parents.
My parents wanted to go to Jakarta by a ship.
That trip was cancelled due to weather problem, and my parents were asked to come back to tommorow.
On the next day, my parent went to hairbour in the early of morning , and the trip was still cancelled !
My parents order flight tickes quickly, since the event only just 2 days again.
And that flight was delayed for almost 6 hours ! hell crazy.
I picked up my parents at 11 pm and come back to hotel.
Next ?
My graduation invitation card was lost ! It must be joking
I was really frustation at that time.
Why such that difficulty always showing up ?
Is it a fate that I didn't attend my graduation day ?
I was searching for it until 2.am
And miracles happen, that manager hotel help us to find that invitation card, He was really a good person , thanks to him !
Okay I was ready to attend my graduation day.
My graduation day was came.
I followed all the run down in Graduation day.
but what I make a little bit scared was I got a message that some of my close friends could not come to my graduation day, I was a little bit sad.
After the run down was finished, I was worried that they would not be any friends to search for me and took a photo with me, because there were so many many graduated students that met with their people and took a photo.
But, thanks God !
I got a chance to took a photo with some of my friends.
My friends that congratulated me, took a photo with me.
I was very happy, because it's the thing that I very love :
"Take a photo with my precious people"
Whether with my families or with my friends.
I was really really thankful, at the end my prediction at the beginning didn't happen.
My graduation day became a quite good memories.
I got so many photos from that day, I really really really really liked it !
I want to say big thanks to god, to my family, and to my friends that make my graduation day become an once a time precious memory that I will remember.
Regards
Bowling Play Time
I just came back to Jakarta this day after such a long long journey and I'm very tired really.
I come back in order to attend my graduation day.
Actually my graduation day is not my first goal to come back.
My first goal for coming back to Jakarta is to meet up with my family and my friends.
Actually I have 2 plans today, meet up with my friends.
However the first plan is failed suddenly, and I'm quite disappointed.
But thanks to god, that my second plan is success.
For some people who often spent so much times with me, must be know that I'm a moodie person.
Yes I admit it.
Sometimes I think to much if there was a sad thing, even when I'm with other people, sometimes I still think about it.
That's why sometimes I often keep silent even when I was with other people, that's because I'm still thinking about a problem I have.
We ate at one restaurant.
Actually it's quite fun.
After a time, we meet again, a reunion.
At that place, we talked about our experience and what we did since we're seperated.
It's really nice, but I admit it sometimes I still ever keep silent at that time (but it's better than other time maybe).
Next we play bowling.
It's the first time I played bowling actually.
And ?
It's really nice !
I forget all my problem suddenly.
I never think about that problem anymore, it's really really fun !
It's very excited !
Well maybe for all of you that read this will think that's so strange for me.
because playing bowling is just a common thing, and all of you often played it many many times.
But for all of the people that really know my social difficult times that I wrote in previous post, I think they (maybe) will understand about it.
After have this experience, I just hope that I can get more chances of that fun time, eventhough I know it's kind a late because at the current time me and my friends already have a job.
It's a pity that I didn't have so much chances like that to make my young time become more precious.
But anyway I think that I must be thankful with the chance I have this day.
Regards
I come back in order to attend my graduation day.
Actually my graduation day is not my first goal to come back.
My first goal for coming back to Jakarta is to meet up with my family and my friends.
Actually I have 2 plans today, meet up with my friends.
However the first plan is failed suddenly, and I'm quite disappointed.
But thanks to god, that my second plan is success.
For some people who often spent so much times with me, must be know that I'm a moodie person.
Yes I admit it.
Sometimes I think to much if there was a sad thing, even when I'm with other people, sometimes I still think about it.
That's why sometimes I often keep silent even when I was with other people, that's because I'm still thinking about a problem I have.
We ate at one restaurant.
Actually it's quite fun.
After a time, we meet again, a reunion.
At that place, we talked about our experience and what we did since we're seperated.
It's really nice, but I admit it sometimes I still ever keep silent at that time (but it's better than other time maybe).
Next we play bowling.
It's the first time I played bowling actually.
And ?
It's really nice !
I forget all my problem suddenly.
I never think about that problem anymore, it's really really fun !
It's very excited !
Well maybe for all of you that read this will think that's so strange for me.
because playing bowling is just a common thing, and all of you often played it many many times.
But for all of the people that really know my social difficult times that I wrote in previous post, I think they (maybe) will understand about it.
After have this experience, I just hope that I can get more chances of that fun time, eventhough I know it's kind a late because at the current time me and my friends already have a job.
It's a pity that I didn't have so much chances like that to make my young time become more precious.
But anyway I think that I must be thankful with the chance I have this day.
Regards
Langganan:
Postingan (Atom)